This is exactly what I crave when i'm attempting any sort of diet. How can someone whose favorite food is a cheeseburger, have a successful diet?? I have the good angel and bad angel on my shoulder whispering "eat the cheeseburger"... "don't eat the cheeseburger"... but if I weren't on a diet of course those two little fuckers wouldn't exist, and I wouldn't be so damn tortured!! A little MEMO to my mind: Im trying to lose weight, STOP making me want things I shouldn't be eating!!

To make things worse, the everyday fling I had with my gym has stopped. I haven't been to the gym in 3 days and according to the scale at work, I didn't lose any weight from last week. Fuck. I know I should be happy I didn't gain anything, but I don't understand, I put so much work into my workouts last week, and had a good week of actually eating healthy and nothing gone?? Not even one?? Why did I lose 3 pounds the first week but nothing the second?

Why are my jeans looser? It felt like I lost 5 so far, and there's no way 3 pounds can give me looser jeans.

I just wish I had an app to control myself. No, not my eating, but control my mind and emotions... I know the weight isn't going to drop right away, I know some people can lose 15 or more pounds in a month. But clearly that's not me. I need to stop getting stressed out and just let things happen, but I just can't.

And can it stop fucking snowing like crazy over here??!!! All this snow only adds to my moods...